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Wow livejournal....

2008-12-04T19:12:01Z

I forgot that livejournal even existed anymore. I haven't posted in 2 years. I guess that's a good sign. I'm in Spain now. It's okay. Sometimes I feel like I should just give up on it because I've been studying it for so long to not much avail. I should really be doing my work and ignoring all the things that are troubling my mind. what's troubling my mind? January, February, and piso stuff. At least I have a piso now. That's good, but I'm really nervous about it. Maybe I should have just gone back to Smith. It seems like the saner thing to do. I feel like I've lost my independence now that I'm in a real relationship. I don't like it, it makes me feel weak and boring. I don't know how to balance it. I'm so tired right now and I have a nervous feeling in my core. I miss my friends back home and wish I talked with them more. I feel like I've really lost touch with most of them.
Live journal reminds me of high school. Sometimes I have dreams with people from high school. I wish I could see some people again, but there would be no point. I liked them. Now there is fakebook, to unite us all together, right?
I was going to play my clarinet, but my roomate is sleeping. I saw a street performer (which is super raro en Cordoba) and I liked the music he was ... standing/statue-ing to. I kept it in my head so I could play it when I got home, but maybe tomorrow.

idontusethis @ 2006-10-02T23:46:00

2006-10-03T03:55:45Z

haha, I'm updating because I'm cool, and I don't feel like taking a shower just yet. College is cool. I could never write in a journal every day, even though it's a really nice idea. Memories are swell. I like my sociology class. It makes ya think about a lot of things that you might have never thought about. Or things that you push away. Like social injustices...it's scary how you can retreat to your social bubble and block out realities. The capitalist society makes us selfish if you think about it. People woudln't stand up for people who don't have the same labor privileges, because it would endanger their own self interests. Silly capitalism. I wish high school had been structured differently, because a lot of people write really insightful essays. Yeah, some are pretty dry, but it's really interesting. High school was all memorization, memorizing the basics, and college is more thinking and developing the mind. I like it. I went to a human rights protest last week and held a sign that said "There is no evidence when it is extracted through torture." And we did chanted "Torture not in our name." I think I was the only Smith student there, or maybe not. It was mainly older folks and they had props and costumes. I took pictures, but on my cell phone. I should go to sleep, I need to wake up early tomorrow :)

hahaha

2006-07-01T02:46:24Z

yay : D says:
have you ever heard of louisXIV?
yay : D says:
and KT Tunstall?
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
Louis the 14th yes
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
not the latter

yay : D says:
do you like louis?
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
well, yes and no
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
no wait
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
I should Say, I liked him before the syphallis
yay : D says:
haha
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
mostly because he didnt kill the one he loved when she bore him no sons. excluding the one that was weak and died.
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
that was nice of him
yay : D says:
no, i mean the band
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
not many kings would do the same
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
Lol...
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
great.
Thinking You Would Be Real Happy And Healthy, Strong And Calm, Where Does The Good Go? says:
lol. i dont know them

idontusethis @ 2006-04-27T20:08:00

2006-04-28T00:28:53Z

well. i guess i'll write about what happened today.

i went to the river today, and wept. i origingally wanted to go down and throw rocks in the river, because i thought i was angry. but it was a destructive anger, it wasn't even anger. i was just really disappointed over petty things. disappointed about people. as soon as i exited school, with a hard push on the door (i must do that at least once a week ha) and then i just yelled "fucking cunt." and it was loud, but i guess no one heard me, which was good. but i wouldn't have cared anyway. so i decided to go down to the river, and i actually parallel parked, well too. and it was nice by the river. i wasn't sure how i felt but then as soon as i went over to the rail, i was overwhelmed with a weird sadness. i was upset over people, and the way they are, and i'm all right now, but i was really upset about it before. and then i thought about the different people that come by the river. there's the people, the real river people, like me, who just go there and think and they just stare out. or the people who lay down and rest. and they don't bother anyone, no one bothers anyone else. we just stare out into the water, onto the mountains, because it's so peaceful and freeing. and then there are the people, who go there because it's nice and it's a place to socialize. and there are the kids who scoop the loop and play loud music. and the people like me, who were just there for their own reason, thinking and staring, the whole idea made me sad. and it wasn't like i was thinking about it either, as soon as i got onto the platform and saw the people who were there, i just started crying.

then i walked over to the other side and sat on the bench and just stared into the water. and a guy on another bench who must've been staring out for a good hour kept looking at me every so often. i don't know who he was, but he looked familiar. the river is so fascinating. it just keeps going, it's never still. it's so determined. it never stops.

then for some reason i went back over to the other spot and that guy left and i laid on a bench and stared up at the sky. it was pretty and i thought i saw birds in the sky, but then i realized birds don't fly that high. so as i was lying there i realized something really important.. realized what makes a good person: kindness, trueness, generousity, tolerance, and understanding. the other stuff...it doesn't matter. you know, if you're smarter, you have more money, you have better fashion sense, you're prettier, you have cooler interests...none of that matters. none of those things make anyone a better person than someone else. the only way you're above or better than someone else is if you have those 5 qualities. and even when you do have all those qualities to the fullest extent, you don't feel like you're better than anyone else. everyone just realizes it, and tries to live up to it.

hmph

2006-04-09T04:06:01Z

you're..so depressing. you know that? yeah, it's you, but you're really depressing. you give me the weirdest feeling. never good enough for you. never intellectual enough for you. i can't even look at you. it's really uncomfortable..walking down the hallway, and seeing you. i just look straight ahead, with my eyes wide open staring ahead. avoiding eye contact at all costs. or looking down to the floor. i'll never understand you. you'll always be convinced that you understand me. you're a mystery. i wish you'd say a word to me. just a word, a meaningful word. like "hi." because, it's actually a meaningful word. just saying hello to someone, it's a nice gesture. you hang out with such bitchy girls now. cliquish girls with nice shoes and who laugh at stupid things and are just annoying brats. you make me want to take a walk in the rain. a really long walk, as to clear my head completely. long walks in the rain depress me. you depress me, to an extent. your voice is really soft. and you really don't know a whole lot. you're really fake in that sense...it must be a security thing. i don't know why it matters that much, it's not like people will like you more if you know a bunch. you're mysterious. you have a mind, a real mind. you don't keep committments. you're selfish. you're too much about being true to yourself, but i guess that's the only thing that keeps you happy. you're the last person i'd want to be alone with in a room, for a long period of time. i wish i could forget people like you. but you left some weird impact on me, that gives me the weird feeling. i don't even know any other people like you, so i guess, i wish i could forget you. forget your name, forget the variations of your name, forget what you look like, forget your sn, forget memories. because, they're so worthless. like fake memories, i don't even know. it doesn't matter in the end. lol, like my yearbook. wtf lol. it's funny, really. i should just rip that page out.

idontusethis @ 2006-03-18T21:00:00

2006-03-19T02:12:32Z

woo. well, i'm in an interesting mood. quite jolly, but weird at the same time. i just walked around my house with my recorder to see if i could find someone. because i heard a weird noise, so then i was like 'oh maybe someone broke in. let me look around the house and check it out.' and, of course the only thing hard that i could find in my room besides my beautiful big red peace sign, was my recorder lol. and yes, i know i'm crazy, because no one will ever break in, because the doors are always locked, but i dunno, i'm weird like that. and not that my recorder would ever hurt anyone, but i guess it would work. it's like at the hardware store this past summer, where i was afraid someone was in the warehouse outside, and i took this container of grease with me, to bop the guy in the head with, and Bill laughed at me. lol. i guess i should have taken a hammer, but i wouldn't want to hurt anyone that bad, but it turned out to just be someone who had left their car at the store over night. i can't play the recorder. haha, but it doesn't matter. oo, i have a lesson tomorrow, that's fun. lol oh and as i was searching my house, i had some paper in the pouch of my sweatshirt, lol yes some paper. some paper with interesting material on it :P, and it would have been sorta funny if i got killed and people found that paper in my pouch, hahaha. lol, but anyway, i'm alive, and i will dispose of the paper after i type it up, so s'all good bitches.
i went shopping today, and bought stuff. including a lesbian romance book :D. I liked the title...She loves me, she loves me not. actually, it was the closest thing i could come to, that was erotica but didn't say erotica on the front cover. not as close as i would have liked it to be though. it's a pretty cool book, it has short stories in it. some are funny, others more serious, but they're cool anyhow. i also bought presents for sr. d and mme.c. oh, i forgot blanched almonds. ah well, another time. but i bought sr. d. a book with work from Pablo Neruda, and mme. c a book about Monet. but i might give it to my mom, cos she likes art too. and then i bought like 3 books for my AP classes. The AP Calc one is huge, but i guess because it covers AB and BC. i started reading it, and it's good. Lots of reminders that i forgot about..from last year :/. i wish piper were on, but she's prolly doing something cool/important/piperish. yup yup. i could write more. and maybe i will.
i think my parents just got home. i should have done the dishes. eh. i should do my work, and my scholarships. but it's saturday night, lol. whatever. lala. i don't feel like writing more actually. maybe in my other journal, where being discreet DNE. that's right suckers, later. :)

idontusethis @ 2006-03-05T16:26:00

2006-03-05T21:26:27Z

always means all the time, at all times. not forever.

when something's going wrong, you must whip it!

2006-02-23T05:24:06Z

yeah. whipping solves life's problems. i feel bad that i haven't been out on a field in a while. but there's not much i can do about it anyway. i just played a lil now, lol, but there's not a lot i can do in my basement, with a deflated soccer ball. it's still round, sort of. i remember after prom party, when me and liz were playing soccer at like 2 in the morning lol. she was kicking the Basketball at me lol. and basketballs are hard, lol they hurt against bare hands. and i remember she was yelling "yeah Jen, cut off the angle!!" haha. and there wasn't any angle to cut off because she was so close, and i was like "Liz you're too close, don't kick... ahh oww" *dive fall* owies. lol. and then michelle cringing and telling me not to dive on the gym floor lol. and ms. yen yelling out the bingo numbers. and that pretty girl, who's even prettier now. lol, and then before, talking to shawna and them and how her and maureen changed in the limo. hahaha. while patrick and john were in the car. jeez. i wish we would have went to walmart. it would have been rather comical.

a few nights ago when i was on the couch, i got a random flashback to when me and my brother were younger. and it was a warm day, not quite summer time, but it must have been around May. Because it was warm out, and i remember that my mother wasn't home. And I think my brother called her, lol, to ask her if it was warm enough for us to wear shorts. haha. and it was. And since it was warm, and we were both up, and since we had bagels in the freezer, we decided to have bagels, in the basement. Because, the basement is greattt in the summer time, nice and cool. So we had our bagels in the basement, and set up the green card table, and ate on it. It was really swell. that must have been...8 years ago. haha, how time goes by.

mm, so i guess i'm going to go out tomorrow night. With Johanna. I have not talked to her in soo long. But i saw her at school on friday, and almost convinced her to skip class and come down to the river with me. but i'm glad she went to class anyway lol. so, we're going to do something tomorrow. I'm not sure what. because, it's hard to find things to do around here. and people are all away. bunches of folk are in florida and others in VT on the ski trip. And, well there's nothing to do in town, except go to the river lol. which is fun, if you're in the mood for it. so maybe there's a movie out. but i hate sitting inside and watching movies. lol, there's a skating park up in hyde park. but i don't want to drive up there...it's really far. like a good 50 minutes away. and the movies aren't that far, so that's always good. But, i'd like to get a translator, so maybe we'll go the mall. I planned on going tonight, but both of my parents were going to be out, so they didn't want me to go out too. so then i was going to visit my grandparents, but nanny wasn't feeling well. but i'll go up another night, and play some music for them or something. So hopefully me and johanna can come to the mall. I don't think she'll care what we do. i don't think any of us care what we do, as long as it's something entertaining. i don't know. Like walking around by the river with Ilse, it was entertaining. i took pictures and got cold. it was fun. and she found a lantern and took it home with her. so, yeah, it was good... I say "so" a lot. and "and." but not as much as "but." See, if i went to best buy though, i was thinking of picking up an L Word season 1 dvd thing, but i don't know if i want to do that around yohan. because...even though she said she was okay with it..well, i won't get into it on this account. i mean, it's all right if i buy it, but i'm not 100% comfortable about buying it, but i probably will anyway. Maybe...i just need to ask people about it. i might not want to spend 40 bucks either, haha.

well, it's getting late. or early. escoral (SP????) soup is quite good. though, it wasn't escoral (SP????) soup, it was E. with beans. because E.S. has lil meat balls in it. Eric Clapton is pretty cool. i think that's who i'm listening to. Yeah. I get him mixed up with Van Morrison sometimes. lol. Ace is such a cool name. I wish my name was Ace, instead of Jennifer. jennifer is german. I'm not german! my parents were going to name me Sarafina (nice isn't it??), after my grandfather, but they thought it was too Italian. I would have taken it as my confirmation name, but i didn't know you could a different name than what your sponsor's name was. Like, i took my grandmother's name, Rose, and she was also my sponsor. But i should have taken Sarafina, and she would have liked that anyway. It probably would have made her cry actually. But, it would have been all right. Crying over memories, it's all right. I don't know why people hold back tears when they're crying over memories. They shouldn't. My brother cried at my grandfather's funeral. I was glad, because it seemed like he needed to get it out. He just broke down and cried, and i remember his face crinkling and him just making a sort of wail. aww. It's weird that you're not supposed to cry at wakes. If i don't cry, i sort of laugh. i don't mean to, of course, but it's just a me thing. when i was at my grandfather's wake, i remember..I was sobbing. And this Italian woman came up to me. This woman who spoke extremely broken English and just kept saying "sarafino, good man. sarafino.." like over and over again, and no one knew who she was. and she came over to me and and just put her hand on my head and said something. i don't remember what, something in italian/english trying to allay me. and i just cried harder. just thinking about that time makes me cry. interesting stuff.

I've got these cool glasses. They have thick white rims and purple eye glass rims. i guess they're ski glasses. But i don't ski, so i wear them when i can't find normal ski glasses, or if i just feel like looking silly. i don't think anyone cares about my weird glasses, but i just felt like leaving this journal entry off on a fairly jolly note. Good day.

idontusethis @ 2006-02-21T22:09:00

2006-02-22T03:15:32Z

jeez, it's so cold down here. in case anyone was wondering: the reason why i don't turn the heat up is because if i do, i'll forget to turn it down. and then my parents will be annoyed. in case anyone was still wondering: i'm not horribly absent minded, really. it's just that not turning up the heat has become a habit, so that now if i do turn it up, i'll forget. anyway.

talking to that kid is like talking to tat. aye.!!! drives me nuts sometimes. people who think they know everrything. it's annoying. Annoying! god damn it, you fools. and that, that means nothing to you. and i don't care. your heads are like diamonds.

so yes. it does feel like summer. and we are talking about plot sites. and stuff related to that. which is kinda sad i guess. i don't like talking about it. or well i can, but not with a lot of emotion. which is weird, because it makes it seem like i'm indifferent or happy, but i'm really not. ah well, let's hope stuff won't happen for a little while.

i'm cold and tired and i don't feel like doing anything more. good night.

idontusethis @ 2006-02-09T22:50:00

2006-02-10T03:55:31Z

today has been a really emotional day to say the least. i hope i will be more stable tomorrow.

anyway, it feels like friday, and i wish it was, because it's pretty late and i have school tomorrow. and tomorrow will be a long day. i had a lot of things on my mind before i came down here, and i just remembered them. but i'm not going to write in them. if my mother was asleep, and if it were earlier, i'd take a surf to diaryland and write there. but then i think i'd just get upset. so i'll just ramble here i suppose. i don't know. there is a lot of stuff in the back of my mind that i want to bring up and talk about, but another part of me doesn't want to, because i'm afraid i'll just break down. and they're not even terrible things or anything like that. just things that i normally think about that are in the back back part of my mind that i don't get a chance to talk about. but now when i really want to talk about them, i actually don't want to because i know i'll feel weird. so maybe i should just go to sleep and know that i'll feel better in a few days.

idontusethis @ 2006-02-09T11:57:00

2006-02-09T17:00:40Z

i always see things in my mind. or i get a feeling about things. and some things are really deeply felt and i know that they are going to happen. later on in life. but it only goes till i'm like 40. so i wonder if i'll only live till 40. which i think will be all right, because i also feel like i'll get accomplished what i want to before i'm 40. but then other things come in my mind. like horrible things, that i imagine will happen and i think about who i'd react to them. like someone being murdered or something, and how horrible it would be. and that's scary.

idontusethis @ 2006-02-05T12:09:00

2006-02-05T17:08:30Z

it's really nice to have a car

i don't feel like sleeping

2006-01-29T05:54:11Z

*extremely long survey*
ABOUT YOU
Your full name::	Jennifer Ann La Grease
Age::	17
Height::	5' 6"
Natural hair colour::	brown
Eye colour::	blue
Number of siblings::	1
Glasses/contacts?::	Neither
Piercings::	ear lobes
Tattoos::	a mickey mouse one that's fading currently on my arm
Braces?::	gah, yes.
FAVOURITE
Colour::	bluee
Band::	tegan and sara
Song::	whip it-devo
Stuffed animal::	puppy dog :D
Video game::	um...that star wars demo is pretty cool
TV show::	grey's anatomy, even though i hardly watch it
Movie::	The Breakfast Club
Book::	sadako and the 1000 paper cranes--a lil kid book, but i still <3 it
Food::	pizza, duh
Game on a cell phone::	brick attack
CD cover::	eh? mm...well, ani difranco's knuckle down cd cover was pretty cool, though i didn't feel it reflected the music well :S
Flower::	jeez, hmm. ohh, bleeding hearts
Scent::	people
Animal::	people always ask me this, and i really don't know, but i like dogs.
Comic book::	Archie and Jughead :)
Cereal::	Crispix!
Website::	figging.com--just kidding lol. hmm, TD is pretty spiff
Cartoon::	Simpsons
DO YOU
Play an instrument?::	yep, a few
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?::	haha, yeah right.
Like to sing?::	not really
Have a job?::	side jobs yes
Have a cell phone?::	yeah, but it doesn't work, lol
Like to play sports?::	no, love to play 'em
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	no
Have a crush on someone?::	actually, no
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?::	yo, the US rox
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?::	no, but we used to. haha
Have any special talents/skills?::	No. none at all.
Excercise daily?::	yep :)
Like school?::	haha no.
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?::	yes! it's good, in case you ever get pulled over for being drunk or something...
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?::	no
Speak any other languages?::	sort of
Go a day without food?::	prolly
Stay up for more than 24 hours?::	prolly
Read music, not just tabs?::	yeah
Roll your tongue?::	clarrro
Eat a whole pizza?::	eww! god no!! who can do that???
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?::	i've never really had a need to
Cried to get out of trouble?::	yeah
Gotten lost in your city?::	i don't think that's possible.
Seen a shooting star?::	can't remember, so prolly not
Been to any other countries besides the united states?::	does Epcott count? i went to 10 countries there. i even have my passport to prove it!
Had a serious surgery?::	got my teeth pulled, and i chain hooked onto my perms
Stolen something important to someone else?::	noo
Solved a rubiks cube?::	haha no
Gone out in public in your pajamas?::	yeah
Cried over a girl?::	yess
Cried over a boy?::	no, i don't believe so.
Kissed a random stranger?::	yes. i thought the man was my uncle...he wasn't
Hugged a random stranger?::	yeah
Been in a fist fight?::	nope
Been arrested?::	no
Done drugs?::	noo
Had alcohol?::	yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::	haha yes, lol it's so gross
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?::	haha yes! very funny
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?::	lol, i'm not that dumb
Swore at your parents?::	might have, but not too horribly. like "what the hell?" not directly, i s'pose
Been to warped tour?::	a what?
Kicked a guy where it hurts?::	my brother yeah, but i felt bad afterwards
Been in love?::	yeah
Been close to love?::	yeah
Been to a casino?::	Yes! Atlantic City rox
Ran over an animal and killed it?::	no, i haven't yet! i'm proud lol
Broken a bone?::	yes. my fingers..i always end up breaking them in sports :/
Gotten stitches?::	nope
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?::	ahh, owies
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?::	lol ahhh no
Made homemade muffins?::	yes :), Corn in fact--tres good
Bitten someone?::	no
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?::	yes
More than 5 times?::	no, but i know lotsa folks who have
Been to niagra falls?::	no, but i would like to
Burped in someones face?::	no, ew that's gross
Gotten the chicken pox?::	yup
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth::	10:30
Went to the bathroom::	10:20
Saw a movie in theaters::	This afternoon actually
Read a book::	Thursday..i read The Stranger..it was good
Had a snow day::	last monday
Had a party::	gah, it's been a while.
Had a slumber party::	it's been a really long while.
Made fun of someone::	dinner lol
Tripped in front of someone::	a few weeks ago, and it was like 3 times, me tripping up the stairs
Went to the grocery store::	thursday
Got sick::	currently
Cursed::	currently
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables::	fruit
Black/white::	black
Lights on/lights off::	on
TV/movie::	tv
Car/truck::	car
Body spray/lotion::	spray
Cash/check::	cashhh
Pillows/blankets::	pillows :D
Headache/stomach ache::	tummy ache
Paint/charcoal::	oo, charcoal sounds messy
Chinese food/mexican food::	mexxx
Summer/winter::	winter
Snow/rain::	rain!! :D
Fog/misty::	misty. fog sux for driving :/
Rock/rap::	rock
Meat/vegetarian::	Meat fo sho
Boy/girl::	girl
Chocolate/vanilla::	vanilla
Sprinkles/icing::	icing mmm
Cake/pie::	Pie! i guess. well maybe cakes, i dunno, it's too hard a choice
French toast/french fries::	ohh, they're both so good!
Strawberries/blueberries::	strawberries, even though it gets stuck in my braces :/
Ocean/swimming pool::	pool
Hugs/kisses::	hugs
Cookies/muffins::	cookies
p33n/bewbz::	p33n is d1ck? thats nuts no pun intended, it doesn't even make sense. if i had written this survey i wouldve wrote P33n15. but um, i'll go with "bewbz"...
Wallet/pocket::	wallet
Window/door::	window
Emo/goth::	hmm goth
Pink/purple::	purple
Cat/dog::	dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve::	short
Pants/shorts::	pants
Winter break/spring break::	winter break
Spring/autumn::	autumn--allergies kill moi in spring haha
Clouds/clear sky::	clouds--clouds are so eatable by the way, yes. i just want to eat them :D
Moon/mars::	moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?::	ha, not many
What are their names?::	jo, shmo, loe, bo, and go
Do you have a best friend?::	yeah
Have you ever liked one of your friends?::	yeah
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?::	i don't have any guy friends
Have you ever lost a friend?::	yes.
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?::	lol yes. with pollini haha
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?::	OH NO! YOU'RE VIRGIN EYES WILL BE SCARRED FOR LIFE!
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?::	yes.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?::	been there
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?::	been there
Do you miss any of your old friends?::	sometimes
What friend have you known the longest?::	ilse
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?::	yeah
If so, what is it?::	something i said
How often do you spend time with your friends?::	school and outside of school sometimes..
Do any of your friends drive?::	um, yeah, just like 1 though
Has a friend of yours ever died?::	no, thank goodness!
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?::	decided to go to stony point when it was dark out
What do you think your friends think of you?::	weird :/
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?::	yeah
If you have, with who?::	that girl
Are you single?::	yeah
Are you in a relationship?::	no
If so, for how long?::	n/a
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::	no, i don't
What is your idea of the best date?::	hmm, just something nice
What was your first kiss like?::	yeah, n/a
How old were you when you got your first kiss?::	gah, n/a
Do you think love is a load of shit?::	no
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?::	um, a kiss on the cheek. except it wasn't really a great experience
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?::	no
Have you ever been dumped?::	no
Have you ever dumped someone?::	no
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?::	a kiss on the cheek, but it was friendly anyway
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers::	chinese
Hat::	baseball
Hard::	metal
Free::	food
Space::	balls
Taste::	lips
Good charlotte::	greenday
Red::	heart
Deep::	water
Heart::	blood drive
Cord::	snake
Cheese::	cheese
Rain::	gorgeous
Work::	babysitting
Pedal::	bike
Head::	hat
Bed::	sleeeep
Fluff::	pokemon
Hardcore::	soccer games
Race::	track
Knife::	blood
Jump::	trampoline
I....
am::	a girl
want::	to sleep
need::	to do well on my AP's
crave::	doing stuff
love::	some folk
hate::	i'm not sure. i guess when horrible things happen to people that don't deserve it.
did::	stuff today
feel::	pretty tired
miss::	certain people
am annoyed by::	certain people
would rather::	have to clip my toe nails everyday than have acne
am tired of::	fakeness
will always::	laugh at stuff
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?::	pop
What time is it now?::	12:41
What day is it?::	sunday
Whens the last time you called someone?::	6:30 PM
How much money do you have right now?::	i don't have money, but i've got lots of land
Are you hungry?::	no
Whatcha doin?::	this survey dumbass
Do you like parades?::	yes!
Do you like the moon?::	yeah, it's nice
What are you going to do when youre done with this?::	go to sleep
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?::	yeah, laughs hysterically
If you could have any magical power what would it be?::	to transport myself anywhere. that would have been great, then you know, i wouldn't be a virgin in everything, yep that would have been useful
Have you ever had a picnic?::	yeah, lol. in my basement was the last time haha
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::	yesss, much fun
What about sock em boppers?::	eh? oh wait, yeah, i think so
Are you wearing any socks right now?::	yes, cos my feet will turn purple! if i don't wear them in the basement, cos it's cold down here
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?::	i can be
pretty?::	sometimes i guess, lol when i have make up and my hair isn't a curl ball.
sarcastic?::	i don't like to be
lazy?::	sometimes
hyper?::	not really lol
friendly?::	yeah
evil?::	mm no
smart?::	shrug
strong?::	physically yes, mentally sort of
talented?::	shrug
dorky?::	sometimes
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high::	dan
skip::	grace
dance::	piper
lonely::	pol
pen::	beth
flower::	nana
window::	sam
psycho::	lol, mackenzie :P
brain freeze::	myself
orange::	kim
sassy::	that girl
jelly::	um, a sumo wrestler
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide::	against
love::	for
drunk drivers::	Against!
airplanes::	i dunno, they're good i guess
war::	i don't know
canada::	Canada eh?
united states::	stupid americans
rock music::	for
gay marriage::	duh, for
school::	it needs to be reformed!
surveys::	totally for
parents::	for
cars::	against! that's why americans are fat lol
killing::	that's a hard one
britney spears::	she's hot
coffee::	for
pants::	for
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?::	no
Play strip poker?::	yes
Run away?::	lol, there's no where to go
Curse at a teacher?::	not this year, they're all decent.
Not take a shower for a week?::	yeah
Ask someone out?::	yeah
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?::	a white lie perhaps, i dunno
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?::	totally
Go scuba diving?::	no
Write a book?::	wouldn't have the patience
Become a rockstar?::	lol no
Have casual sex?::	i don't know
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?::	i dunno, it's blue
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?::	it's been a while, lol
What kind of computer do you have?::	HP
What grade are you in?::	12
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?::	no, that's dumb
Or just make out?::	throws popcorn at the surveyors
How many posters do you have in your room?::	like 10
How many cds do you have?::	a bunch
What time is it now?::	12 minutes later than before
Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

what's new? it's cold in my basement, but i like the cold.

2006-01-27T05:42:28Z

it's friday. i guess i feel like writing. i thought in my mind, that i would like to write. i read The Stranger, cos i remembered that i had to read it for English. It reminded me of people, so I liked it. Even though it was kind of detached and about an indifferent guy. indifference is such a crazy feeling. i was cleaning my room today. those drawers, that i don't venture in, too often. just to find a pin, or a squirt gun, or a clarinet reed. but i went through them all today. and of course, in one of them, i found all my old poems. and i put them in a folder. i like reading my old poetry. it's all angry and depressed lol. and i found those comics. they made me laugh. lol. silly me and my comics. well i only did them, because i had too much time on my hands >_>, oh and because i'm a psychopath. hah-good times *rolls eyes*. and i found the other half of my letter to kimmy, that i never gave to her. but i probably should have. it doesn't matter, really. and then i found a poem from 2005, when i was really indifferent about everything, and it's such a depressing and empty feeling. i wrote a poem last night. i like it. because, it is the first poem that i've ever written, that is happy. and not only is it happy, but it has meaning to it. like, yeah some poems have been happy, but like i just wrote them and they were dumb. but this one is actually meaningful. i might submit it to lit mag, because of their intimidating flyers "SUBMIT OR DIE." but actually, because i feel like it, and they only have a few submissions lol. and i only cursed once!

it's funny how i intend to write about things, and then once my fingers are set to type, they want to put other things down. silly fingers. i could be thinking whatever i want in my mind, and these fingers are just moving along, pressing keys. one day, when someone is talking and it's totally boring, i'm just going to listen to the way the person talks. because i think it would be interesting to just hear the sounds, and not understand it. how is english even words? i want to listen and lose my mind i guess. so i don't understand the words, and so i only hear the sounds and can only comprehend them. yes. i guess i could just do that by listening to a foreign language, but i want to separate myself from what i already know.

i should go shopping tomorrow, to buy jeans. men's jeans perhaps, cos they look comfy. sometimes, when i get dressed in the morning, and i'm wearing my fairly baggy jeans, a t-shirt and my soccer jacket, i like..wish that i wasn't a girl. lol, just so it would look good. like, i think it would be a great fashion for a guy. except, i have a bit of a chest. lol a bit. on the days where i dress like that, i wish i could be a guy for a day, just to look hot. but instead, i just end up looking like a girl in baggy pants. or maybe a dyke, i dunno. there's this girl in 7th grade or something, and her clothes and image screams dyke. i wouldn't be surprised if she turned out gay, lol, it would be interesting if my gaydar worked also.

well, it's getting late. there's no one to talk to. ilse just signed off a while ago, randomly. i always feel kinda bad, cos i don't know how to respond to everything she says. but, i do read it all, and comprehend it and remember it. i just don't know what to say to it. *sigh* i should charge my phone. yeah. no one's on AIM really. but then again, i don't really talk to people much on AIM. i talked to katie though, she's up at stony brook. that's real cool. i like this song, Clocks. i think i'm going to go to bed. because i wrote about everything that i intended to write. i think i'll be able to sleep. i wasn't able to siesta that well this evening. but maybe i'll rhyme. i forgot what i was going to rhyme with. sip, pep, pop, pap, pup. yes that's right. it was going to be those sort of sounds, and a competition between the syllables. that must sound silly, but it tires me out when i'm lying in bed. so then i can just sleep nice when i'm exhausted/bored from rhyming. good night.

i wonder what the bml stands for

2006-01-15T05:08:06Z

yeah, i really do. haha spoons are shiny. it's snowy here. it was foggy last night and rainy this morning/afternoon. and now it's a white out. silly weather. looks like i'm not going out for a while. but that's perfectly fine. last night was cool. i just wrote about it, but then deleted it. because no one cares. and because i dunno. it's just not the type of thing to write about in an lj, to me at least. i should keep a real journal, so i can look back at it and read it. lol maybe. my mom's awake. so am i.

idontusethis @ 2006-01-03T00:23:00

2006-01-03T05:28:56Z

oh oh oh, it's fucking cold. in my basement, oh yeah. oh oh oh, it's fucking late. at night, oh yeah. oh oh oh, things are fucking. up up up, oh yeah. oh oh oh, there's fucking swelling. in my heart, oh yeah. oh oh oh it's not so bad. righ now at least, oh yeah. oh oh oh it's only fucking monday. the end of the week is 5 days away, oh yeah. oh oh oh, i have fucking school. tomorrow, oh yeah. oh oh oh, it's time to fucking sleep. in my bed, oh yeah.

oh good, it's 2006.

2006-01-02T01:37:37Z

i'm graduating in 6 monhts. hmm. 2005 sucked. yeah. totally. i mean..the only good things were that i got into college. and we did sort of well in soccer. well, we beat rye neck, so that's good. we lost to that other team, which sucked, but oh well. i still remember laying on that weird ground..grr. anyway. but otherwise..yeah 2005 was pretty un-cool. 2006 sounds nice, and you know i never got used to 2005. i hope 2006 is splendid. i don't think anything could go horrible, because there's nothing to ruin. well, unless like i do really horribly in school and then smith doesn't take me, but that's prolly not going to happen. and hopefully i won't die, cos that would be annoying. and things can't get any worse with friends, or like they could, but that already happened a few times in 2005. so who knows what'll happen. great. i cleaned today. except my room doesn't look any cleaner even though i had like a garbage bag full of junk. i cleaned out my drawers. i found like essays from 6th grade and my writing isn't that much better. and my writing sounds like me. like, i found this one where i wrote about a safari. and the conclusion was like:
"so now you know how i spent my week in africa. i almost got killed. and not only that, but now laura's parents don't trust my family anymore, so i'll prolly never see her again. so, i kinda lost a friend too. but despite almost getting killed, i have to admit, i had a good time anyway." lol god. i'm so crazy.

naruto is downloading

2005-12-23T02:43:15Z

so, i'm going to do this movie thingy. because i don't feel like writing about anything else right now.

(x)Pirates of the Caribbean
( )Boondock Saints
( )The Mexican
( )Fight Club
( )Starsky and Hutch
( )Neverending Story
(X)Blazing Saddles
( )Garden State
( )The Princess Bride
(x)Young Frankenstien
(x)AnchorMan
( )Napoleon Dynamite
( )Saw
( )White Noise
( )White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
( )50 First Dates
( )Jason X
( )Scream
(x)Scream 2
( )Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
( )Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
( )American Wedding
( )Harry Potter
( )Harry Potter 2
( )Harry Potter 3
( )Resident Evil
( )Resident Evil 2
( )The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
( )The Village
( )Donnie Darko
( )Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
( )Finding Neverland
( )13 Ghosts
( )Signs
(x)The Grinch
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x)White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
( )13 Going On 30
( )I, Robot
( )Dodgeball
( )Universal Soldier
( )A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( )Along Came A Spider
( )Deep impact
( )King Pin
( )Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet the parents
( )Meet the Fockers
( )Eight Crazy Nights
( )A Cinderella Story
( )The Terminal
( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb and Dumber
(x)Dumb and Dumberer
( )Final Destination
( )Final Destination 2
( )Halloween
( )The Ring
( )The Ring 2
( )Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
( )Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
( )Ghost Ship
( )From Hell
( )Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
( )Sam I Am
( )Whole Nine Yards
( )The Whole Ten Yards
( )The Day After Tomorrow
( )Child's Play
( )Bride of Chucky
(X!!!)Ten Things I Hate About You
( )Just Married
( )Gothika
( )Nightmare on Elm Street
( )Sixteen Candles
( )Bad Boys
( )Bad Boys 2
(X!!)Joy Ride
( )Seven
( )Oceans Eleven
( )Oceans Twelve
( )Identity
( )Lone Star
( )Predator I
( )Predator II
( )Independence day
( )Cujo
( )A Bronx Tale
( )Darkness Falls
( )Christine
( )ET
( )Children of the Corn
( )My boss' daughter
( )Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( )Best Bet
( )How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( )She's All That
( )Calendar Girls
( )Sideways
( )Mars Attacks
( )Event Horizon
( )Ever After
(x)Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-Men 1
( )X-Men 2
( )Catch Me If You Can
( )The Others
(x)Freaky Friday
( )The Hot Chick
( )Swimfan
( )Miracle
( )Old School
( )Ray
( )The Notebook
( )K-Pax
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
( )Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( )A Walk to Remember
( )Boogyman
( )Hitch
( )The Fifth Element
( )Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x)Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
( )Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
( )Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x)Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedil
( )Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
( )Air Force One
( )For Richer or Poorer
( )Transporter 1
( )Transporter 2
( )People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
( )Sound Of music
(x)Parent Trap
( )The Burbs
(x)The Terminator
( )Empire Records
( )SLC Punk
( )Meet Joe Black
( )Wild Girls
(x)A Clockwork Orange
( )The Order
(x)Spiderman
(X!!)Spiderman 2
( )Amelie
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
( )The Incredibles
( )Collateral
( )The Fast & The Furious
( )2 Fast 2 Furious
( )Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
( )Closer
(lol nope.)Titanic
( )Saved!
( )Bowling For Columbine
( )The Sixth Sense
( )Artificial intelligence (AI)
( )Love actually
( )Shutter
( )Ella Enchanted –
( )Princess Diaries
( )Princess Diaries 2
( )Constantine
( )Million Dollar Baby
( )Envy
( )Eurotrip
( )Malibu's Most wanted
( )Big Daddy
( )Black Sheep
(x!!)The Breakfast Club
(x)West side story
(x)A Christmas Story
( )Spanglish
( )Pulp Fiction
( )Sleepover
( )The Evil Dead
( )Killer Klowns From Outer Space
( )The Seed of Chucky
( )Vanilla Sky
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
( )Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
( )Interview With The Vampire
( )The Crow
( )Purple Rain
( )Reservoir Dogs
( )Wayne's World
( )Wayne's World 2
( )21 Grams
( )Blow
(x haha)Edward Scissorhands
( )Clerks
(x)Beauty and the Beast
( )Guess who
( )Monster In-Law
(x)Elf
( )Stuart Little
( )Stuart Little 2
( )Mall Rats
( )Chasing Amy
( )Dogma
( )Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
( )Beetlejuice
(x)The Last Samurai
( )The Amityville Horror
( )The Aviator
(x)Romeo and Juliet
(x)Barbershop
( )Beauty Shop
( )Legally blonde
( )Legally blonde 2
( )The forgotten
( )Confessions Of A Teenage Drama Queen
( )The Grudge

that was a long list. but i finished when naruto download finished, so wootah. 46 out of something. and by the way, i have no intention on seeing titanic in the near future. everrr

i think my comp has a virus...

2005-12-04T06:45:50Z

yeah, because it's slow and porn randommly pops up sometimes. wow, it's late, but i just slept for a few hours on the couch and then woke up again. and i'll take a shower in a little bit :) boy i'm tired. wow, so today i actually did stuff. in the morning, i had an SAT II, which sucked, but oh well. i'll find out if i get into college before i get those results anyway. And then after that, I went to the soccer breakfast which was great. jeez, imma miss soccer, this was truly a great season. and, we got t-shirts! like a lot of t-shirts lol. a sectional champion one, a Soccer is For Life long T, and one that cara made that i don't really get. but hey, who cares, it will provide some diversity in my t-shirts, ee. so then i went home eventually and used la red, and talked to piper but then she went away or something and i wanted to siesta, lol. and then me and ilse went to the movies. it was a nice time out..i picked her up at like 3:45 and then we went to walmart *shudder* cos i needed my medecine. and then we were almost late, ilse was freaking out about missing the beginning but i was like eh we'll make it, and it worked out :). and yeah, RENT was really good. like, not great though, but meaningful and nice. Seasons of Love makes me cry. and ilse made me cry when she remembered that we saw it in 7th grade, like 5 years ago, and now we saw it again when our lives are just about to change... mmm. lol but anyway, so then we were going to grab a bite to eat at the mexican place, but we figured it would be packed so we went to a different one that my parents always go to. and like, no one was in there, except this guy who went to my school like 5 years ago. the food was good, but i guess it was relatively early too, only 7. we talked for like 2 hours and just sat there talking about everything. it was good. <3 ah, i'm tired and need to shower and brush my teeth. and i have to make cookies with beth tomorrow, lol. lol, she's such a fun person to be around sort of. like, she can be a lil particular about thigns, and i'm sure tomorrow she will be "that's not exactly a cup of flour *grabs it from me*"---i guarantee it! lol but she's a funny kid and a violent Quaker. and i have a lot of homework..god i shouldn't even bother studying for calc, that was a horrible test..the tests are always so different from what we do in class. it's annoying and i don't like getting averages in the 80's grr. mm, i need to buy ppl christmas gifts, lol but not many this year. that's the advantage of not having a lot of friends :P haha. and suze is jewish, but i s'pose i should give her something anyway. it'll probably be cookies or something..i really want to make stuff this year *nods* but i'll prolly be busy. because of track. damn, i hate track. i really do..it sucks. i shouldn't have signed up for it..i shouldve just done soccer. :( oh well. there's nothing good about track, man. i don't want to go back in monday. *sigh* i was sleeping before..and thinking about RENT and it made me have dreams..nice dreams about i don't know what. but they were nice and warm and i can't wait to back to sleep in probably 20 minutes..mmm sleep. peace out bitches

idontusethis @ 2005-11-27T21:38:00

2005-11-28T02:45:01Z

i don't know. maybe we're all just a bunch of scared unstable kids. who like to sit around and need to sit around.

i don't feel well. but i'm probably just tired and overwhelmed by the homework i should have done. i get so apathetic when it comes to work. but i chilled out. i kept getting dizzy today for some reason, but it's all right now.

who do you apologize to when you don't believe in God? who do you say "please forgive me, keep me safe" to when you're about to die? when you're scared out of your mind walking? what do you do?

planes still frighten me, esp. when they're coming from the south west.

i bet my face is red now, i feel that my ears are.

i wish i could skip school tomorrow lol. or be sick. but i still have to do my biography. and i'd miss the maths which would be annoying. nah, can't miss tomorrow. i can never miss school..there's never a day..too much to do. my face is so warm.

yeah, just a bunch of insecure kids, that's what we are.

i love Seasons of Love

2005-11-20T05:06:29Z

yep yep, great song. RENT is a movie now. and that is super cool, so i'm going to go see it. because i haven't been to the movies in...like 4 months. and, i have coupons! so, i better use 'em up :D.

yeah, well this weekend was draining. i really expected area all state to be this awesome event, but it was kind of dumb. i didn't really enjoy it. it was allll right. i love this song too "Tempted To Touch". yep. god my allergies really kill me at night lol. but yeah, area all state was all right..kind of like AP classes. either you get it, or you don't. bah. i didn't adjust well...from like just knowing my music to blending with the ensemble. like, i wasn't sure where i came in..yeah i counted but the tempo was weird. lol, bad excuses, but oh well, it doesn't matter. lol i definitely shouldn't have been 1st seat in the 3rds haha. but at least i didn't squeak like the 2nd parter in front of me. lol, he squeaked on like a low F sharp. twice! i just came in wrong twice, lol. but..i didn't play loud at all..so you couldn't even hear it. not like the girls next to me, hahaha like squeaking on this part in Gallop and i was playing so softly. they were better with their timing... but i don't know, they played loud all the time..like..no control of dynamics on some parts. like, on a fp, they crescendoed as the measure went on which just doesn't make sense. or they would do natural crescendos, but you're not supposed to do that. lol, but that's about it, otherwise they were goood. omg, on the bus ride up on friday. it was just me, paul, kim, and amanda. and they were talking about the band camps they went to. and paul and amanda were talking about their theory classes and then ms. stanton would chime in and so would kim, and i was like ahh. because i don't know anything about theory..because i don't really do band stuff out of school. i used to..about 3, 4 years ago, but i just don't have time anymore. lol so i was sort of freaking out, like shit i hope everyone there isn't intense. but then i talked kim and she was like 'paul's just being paul" or something like that. paul is annoying, i don't particularly like him. he loves to brag about himself, and it's annoying. and then he talks about stuff, and he's funny..but not that funny. but yet, everyone laughs, and it's one of those deals where you should laugh because everyone around you is laughing and thinks he's really funny. but then i just got bored and stopped laughing lol. eh he's all right. i wasn't going to talk about this much, but oh well.

yeah. so it's saturday night. i have to wake up early tomorrow..to call steven to try to give him a lesson. i should go shower, but i kind of want to write more. yup yup. bah, i thought that hot song from blackeyed peas was coming on, lol i can never tell with their weird beginnings, but it's some other song. i'm tired. what's up with life? oh yeah. omg, this girl who was in my brother's grade. she died. like two weeks ago or something..i didn't even know. it's so ahhh. like..i didn't know her, but i kind of knew her sister and my cousin was good friends with her. but i guess she died in a car accident 2 weeks ago. ahhh, gosh. i'll have to tell my brother tomorrow..jeez that's sad. yeah. i can't believe i just heard of this now..i saw it in griselle's profile and then ilse said marsha told her like 2 weeks ago. ah, and me and ilse are communicating again. which is good, lol i was getting a little lonely.. oo i like this song "Belly Dancer" mmm. i sent her a letter, and she sent one back and i talked to her on AIM a lil while ago. ah i never put up an away message, ah oh well. yeah, but that's good. so i do have one good friend..that's good. michelle and me are finally off speaking terms. which is grand, because i really don't want to talk to her. after what happened at the football game, i never addressed her, she always talked to me. i'd answer..but kind of coldly. and then she just stopped talking to me, lol which is fine. i couldn't be happier. but..lol i still have her shirt! the croton shirt. and i really don't want it. but i think they lost their volleyball game at states so i'll wait a little while before i return it. god, she lent it to me in like 10th grade lol. wow friendships, i could write about it..but i'd rather not. although i will say that i should have ended them a long time ago. but there's that security thing, you know? the need for friends. but friends who suck are much much worse than no friends *nods*. it's cool. anyway.

i should go shower, it's midnight. i don't like what i'm listening to now: Soul Survivor by Young Jeezy. yeah, me no likey. ah it worked ou that piperr didn't come on tonight cos i left a message saying i'd be back at 8:30 after my siesta..but i came back at like 10:30. so..i would have felt bad if i was 2 hours late, but sam said she wouldn't be on. i miss talking to dear piperr :S, but we'll talk fo' sure yo :D. imma go sleep and shower, er shower and sleep, i think. this has been good though. yep, journal writing is ultra swell :D.

la de dah

2005-11-15T02:25:12Z

I MUst read Dracula, haha. great bedtime story! yay. piperrr, you're not on when i'm on :P, and then when you were on my mind was !$#$&!@@@($# so i had to do stuff and leave. yay, got bunches of stuff done today. yearbookystuff, music and homework and yeah. ah don't feel like writing. nope nope. just kinda feel like rambling about nothing. yepyep. *whistles*

idontusethis @ 2005-11-07T22:34:00

2005-11-08T03:37:24Z

i'm tired.

11 cried

2005-11-05T22:09:04Z

hahahah that's right. we fucking beat rye neck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps up and down and screams* man. i am so happy! :DDDDDDDDD. yep, and she did cry. and faye didn't cry. and we fucking won! it was such a good game, and i'm gonna recap it for all you people who care.

first half: i played goalie and they didn't score :).
second half: Alex went in despite objection/petition from people (but she did a fucking amamzing job!!), and she saved all hers. So the score was 0-0. And man, rye neck was so pissed off. Cara heard them say "This game is such a waste of time, we should just skip this and go to states." haha, motherfuckas.
Overtime: First 10 mins, Emily scores!!! Second 10 minutes: They score :( We're tied again: 1-1.
Double Over time, 5 min sudden deaths: No one scores in either 5 minutes. still 1-1.
PK's: We kicked first. we had savannah, cara, lily, aless, and emily. and they had some other people. okay, so savannah went first and she scored. i swear it was like a bullet to the left. then alex went in and they scored. then cara went and she scored. then alex went in..and stopped it i think. then lily went in and kicked it right to the goalie and it was saved. then alex went in and stopped it. then aless got it and kicked it in. :D. then they went and alex stopped it again!!! and we won!!! :DDDD yay us!
Other Facts: We lost our division. Rye Neck's record was 16-1. Now that they lost the sectionals, their awesome record is worthless!!!!! :DD. and it's 16-2 now. ours is 9-5-1. We lost to rye neck twice in the season, but we wanted it more. yep yep. And people from the paper were there and channel 12 lol. lol when some girl on rye neck yelled "WE WANT THIS RYE NECK", I screamed from the sideline "SO DO WE!!" hehe. and spiedell or whatever her name is, hahaha. i grabbed her leg during the game lol. i meant to get the ball, but i grabbed her leg, and pretty much prevented her from running after the ball and she couldn't get loose ahahahha. and some other time, she came charging at me and i snapped "Watch it." rye neck cried and we didn't. i'm satisfied. but i want to keep playing soccer. Soo we're playing on Mon. somewhere at 7 PM under the lights!!!! :D tres cool. let's see, we got t-shirts, medals, and a plaque that'll have all our names on it. Man, we did so well, we won this game together, it was fucking awesome. and the other great thing is that Rye Neck is moving up to class B next year. HAAHAHHAHAAHA YEAH!!! :DDDDDDDDDD

:)

i don't want to cry this evening.

2005-11-05T07:52:14Z

yes, that's right, i don't want to cry. i want to see miss spidell or whatever her name is, toad..miss piggy.. i want to see her lying on the ground sobbing. that's right. i don't want to see faye on the ground crying. I want to fucking beat Rye Neck.

i have weird sleeping habits. i went to bed 'round 7, just to sleep for a lil bit, and then i woke up round 2 with a bloody nose. so then i forced some orange juice and apple juice down my throat for vitamins lol. and took a nice shower :). and here i am now...in my towel on the computer. haha. i'm cold though, cos my hair's wet. mmhmm. i haven't upadted this shiz in a while, but i don't really feel like writing much anyway. i have to be up in a few hours..we have to be at school quarter to 10. i hate rye neck..they're so cocky. well whatever.

i still have to write my essay, b/c i'm a loser. and gosh i have an interview tomorrow. hmm great. and i have lots of homework..i wish i hadn't slept before, or else i could have got a lot of it done. but i guess i'll take care of it later this evening. tomorrow i gotta write the essay. and then i should be done with everything on tuesday night. and then i'll be free and just have to worry about school. and then hopefully i'll still be playing soccer :D. and then i won't have to track just yet. and then if we win tomorrow, ilse can come to one of my games, maybe, but probably not, but oh well. she prolly wouldn't like it anyway. ahh well. well i'm going to sleep, cos it's 3 am.

But. How do you eat Black and whites cookies? Do you start from the white side or the black side? or do you just bite in for both?? i start from the white :)